Idek where to start. From the beginning? Let’s.
I was seeing this guy for almost 9 months. All of that was distance, and ya ok I’m only 15 but hey. At one point he lived 2 hours away, what could I do? He moved closer after 5 months, only 20 minutes away. You would assume the cheating happened when he lived 2 hours away, nope.
Breaking up with someone in general is, well, heartbreaking. No matter who ends it, there’s that feeling of betrayal. Being let down. The thought that all your hard work was just thrown away. But CHEATING? It’s like that but magnified by a million. Idek.
We had already broken up when I found out he cheated on me (what do I consider cheating? Making out) we had been broken up for 2 months, I was finally starting to be okay with the break up, it was for the better. All we ever did was fight, all he ever did was blame me for his problems which made me develop my own. He cheated a week before we actually broke up. Surprisingly when I was told this by a mutual friend at first I didn’t cry. I just was kind of in shock. I knew it all along, except now I was right.
Not going into detail, whatever. But getting cheated on is up there in pain.
It makes the whole process of picking up your pieces so much harder. Just knowing that your trust, loyalty and “love” was thrown away without a second thought. The fact that the other person can keep that a secret, for however long, and look at you and say they love you or are faithful to you. Those insecurities and problems never go away, heck it still affects me. Just makes me more paranoid.
Girls are told to be skinny but not too skinny and to wear makeup but not so much that guys can tell and to dress in revealing clothes but not too revealing or else you’re a slut and a hundred other contradictory standards so I think guys can deal with being made fun of for wearing fedoras